My Battle - A Prelude

Depression is a vicious and unpredictable disease. Some days you can wake up and feel normal - top of the world, even - open to change, and operate on a level expected of any normal human being. The rest of the time it's the best you can do to put another skin on so that you can make it through work without suffering the even worse option of having to "go sick".

The condition I have, Dysthymia, which was first diagnosed in 2003, is a type of low grade depression which is certainly less intensive than a major depressive episode, but has a longer establishment. The effect it can have on someone's life is as significant, but as Dysthymia is easier to control in the consciousness it can be overlooked. It's something that I may never be able to shift, where minor niggles that most can navigate without issue or threat can transform into major worries in the psyche of a sufferer, as well as their physical nature. I can speak of this from some experience!

So, I suppose the question is, why have I felt the need to publicise this for public consumption on what is largely a game and media opinion site? Throughout all of the treatments, remedies and efforts to redirect my life, the most satisfying was putting my own blog together many years ago. I haven't maintained a blog for what feels like centuries now, and I still believe that to be an era that's passed, but I also believe that occasionally recounting some of those past stories might provide me with some light relief from the present day, and you with some amusing accounts of times gone by.

I'm 27, working an inconsistent and unsatisfying rank of jobs, for very little money and all under the darkest psychological rain cloud you can think of. This is my battle, and I intend to win it.